Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Insomnia

The moon in the bureau mirror
looks out a million miles
(and perhaps with pride, at herself,
but she never, never smiles)
far and away beyond sleep, or
perhaps she's a daytime sleeper.

By the Universe deserted,
she'd tell it to go to hell,
and she'd find a body of water,
or a mirror, on which to dwell.
So wrap up care in a cobweb
and drop it down the well

into that world inverted
where left is always right,
where the shadows are really the body,
where we stay awake all night,
where the heavens are shallow as the sea
is now deep, and you love me.

Elizabeth Bishop

Have you ever tried to avoid someone in the hopes that maybe they might miss you enough to set aside time to be with you? What if all you are doing is teaching them to grow accustomed to your absense? What if they don't miss you at all?

I had a wonderful time at the beach this spring break. We got back to my house Friday because I had hoped to spend some time with some people from back there. One of them I used to talk to alot, but he has to work alot so we don't talk much anymore. Candy kept saying i think you should call him you might not be back in town till thanksgiving, but when I did try, I was right, he was working.

I got my report card in. Four C's and a D, the wierd part is I was a little glad because my mom had asked how school was going earlier and I told her I was failing all my classes and had to go see the dean about being on Chapel probation, but all she did was sigh and launch off into her own problems. When I got my report card in Candy asked if I was going to throw it away before my mom saw it. I told her no, I was going to post it on the fridge and see how long it took my mom to give a damn. Maybe she isn't using the fridge these days. Maybe she just doesn't care. My phone is dead, my charger missing, my transmission is bad, and my brakelines are leaking.

These things irritate me, but over all I can't really complain. I'm glad to be back at school, and I know I am very blessed.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

ROAD TRIP!!!


Candy: you look like her, she was a Jew.
me: so now I'm a Jew?
Candy: well, you have dark hair and dark eyes
me: oh yes that constitutes a Jew
Candy: Jesus was a Jew. I'm only saying you look like Jesus
Me:...
Candy:
Look! He's Jewish! He has a beard!

I'm going on a road trip with the best roomie ever!!!

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Hey Everybody, thanks for the concern as of late. School is great now that my greek midterm is over. Yeah it didnt go so well but thats life. I haven't gotten my car registration yet dad but thanks for that.

As of wednesday I have all 2700 dollars in for my New Zealand mission trip. Thankyou so much everyone for your prayers and contributions. Ironically the last 20 dollars I lacked was given to me by Chris. No comment there.

I go in this coming week for bloodwork. I finally gave in. I hate needles. But I can't afford to miss any more class and I am constantly fatigued, i can barely keep my eyes open lately no matter how much sleep I get. Plus the doctor already promised me that if I was sent back for throwing up blood he would do blood work whether I wanted it or not. (and you wonder why doctors scare me)

On a happier note, the eating disorder support group thing that my friend and I have been praying about just got jump started today. Please pray that it is blessed. I guess we should work on a better name huh?

I love you all. Buon Giorno